PANIC is overestimated

I HAVE A FLAT! Or should I say room... Yippee! The only thing I did was email those at Beds Uni that you know, I can always sleep in a tent on their garden if I don't get a room now and then I suddenly was offered a room... Or something like that anyway.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH I can't believe I'm leaving! I can't I can't I can't

PREPARATIONS

12 days to go! Am I freaking out? No... Honestly I don't really realize what's gonna happen because of my "I-live-one-day-at-a-time" philosophy which has been stuck into my brain since my final exams.

I have made ONE CONTACT from the university via facebook (hehehe). It's a she from Finland and we're having a meeting at the campus on the 21st when I arrive. Uuuuuh :D

Cecci wanted me to add some hot studs (from the uni) as friends on facebook but I didn't; I'm a coward...

So the only actual tiny-weeny problem (there's always a problem) is that I don't have my accommodation yet... In the worst case scenario I can always buy a tent from the local supermarket and camp on the university garden for a year or so... sounds good doesn't it, eh? I would make lots and lots of new friends wanting to visit my habitat area.

I'm not gonna stop seeing the rain

Hello hello. No blogging in a while... Well I'm gonna start again in about 3 weeks since I'm moving to England for a new studying experience in a university. I'm mostly gonna write for myself to memorise everything and of course for my family and friends (so that I don't have to talk with them about my doings ;))

Catch up with ya'll later xo

Don't really have the time

The model is Emma from paparazzi.fi and photographer is me! We had a "model-folder" photoshoot.

I don't really have the time to blog now, firstly I've regained my passion for photography (check out http://s-fia.deviantart.com for more) I've finally understood that my niche is portraiture/fashion photography. I'm living in Kamppi, two weeks yet to come without internet and tv but I've never done so much in one week than this.

Right now wonderings: Go and study to England or Australia? I can't decide, I'm too stunned and horrified. Which one is it? Whoaaaaa

The weird tales

Is it weird that I listened to music (from my iPod) from 00.00 - 02.00 yesterday night? And that I'm probably gonna do the same thing tonight?

Is it weird that I can search for my telephone for 10 minutes while talking with someone on the same telephone?

Is it weird that I've once put a piece of paper in the dishwasher and afterwards thrown a fork in the garbage?

Is it weird that I've once gone out for a walk with the dog... without the dog...?

I like the little ponies and the little rainbows

From deviantart.com

The celebrations are still on; too bad the partystar is sleeping on the couch with a new doggy shirt on which literally says "doggy 23", poor Roope looks like a basketball player. My packing is going bad too, all of my clothes are in a huge pile in the middle of my room. I guess tomorrow it's just throwing all of them in my suitcase, like they'll ever fit in.

Next week it's work work work, partying, chilling, photography gig (yay - they keep on coming now) and shopping! I hope my "stay-at-home" weekend pays off. Plus I have to add that I'm logging in to facebook more than ever now (if someone's wondering), there's a rational reason for that too... which I can't say here. Why do I always screw things up for me?

Flower Design

I'm not quite sure I like my too "designish" banner but I would change it soon anyway, I get bored so damn fast. That's probably good when aspiring for the design/photography/media career, everything changes so fast.

Apollo-Gize

I haven't done anything today! Cecci was at our place for 4 hours and we watched tv like two brain-dead people and I continued from there watching the computer like a brain-dead person. (Yes people and person, hmph) I might read a bit of Harry Potter now... Really fricking interesting this shit I'm writing ain't it, eh?

If I wouldn't be ill I would be partying at Kaivo.

The illness is creeping over

I'm so very fricking ill and I hate it... hate it! Tomorrow we are celebrating our dog Roope's 10th birthday with lots of guests and crap. I also have to pack my clothes, tv and computer as I'm moving alone to my grandmother's flat in Kamppi, Helsinki for 3 weeks because of my job so no fricking rest there either. I have to be healthy on monday! But I'm very excited, now I just have to suffer a bit before the good things come.

Sickness and other stories

Good morning!! I think I'm sick... It's my bloody nose which won't cooperate today, I have to sneeze every 2 minutes for fucks sake. So I've loaded myself up with C-vitamin, warm cherry juice, burana, codetabs and nose spray. I refuse to be dependent to my bed this summer.

On the program is watching finale episode of the Hills, starting to read Harry Potter and the deathly hallows for the second time and in the evening walking to my dear C to hear her coughing when I'm blowing my nose.

...and this is what I do, selfportaits

Yes really pretty indeed, this is what I do when I get extremely bored. GET CREATIVE. I'm not afraid to show my dark side ;) I have quite a few of these horror images of myself actually...

Graduation Photography

Today I photographed pretty Andrea for her 'thank you' cards, it turned out great and here are some of my favourites :)

Guess which one we chose? ;) The last one! I could start my own business soon ;)

My name's breezy

I'm trying to memorize as much as I can about my summer here in Finland! It's kind of fun not to know at all where I might end up in 2 months... Most likely England so my only goal for this summer is to make it unforgettable and just enjoy every single moment. (And single indeed ;))

Today Verkku&AM came to us; we bought food and watched Twilight; AM had her male dog with her, I didn't know my male dog was gay... Anyway, I also visited Cecci for a quick walk. Tomorrow I'm gonna photograph Andru for her graduation "thank you" cards:)

Next week I'm moving to Kamppi alone for as long as possible = 3 weeks? Iaaaaaaaah ahaaaah! Glory glory hallelujah!

Summer lovin

I've been on the beach with my baby oil, Verkku and Annmarie (and DAMN I'm brown but I don't recommend it to anyone, especially not to my ginger friend AM who stubbornly put it on anyway and had a red arm after 2 minutes...)

Then I started reading a book today!! Really proud!! It's a murder mystery novel about lots of dead bodies/murder and shit, the only genre I like. Also Harry Potter for that matter...

Ooooh this is gonna be such a great summer, not to mention that my summer job is the best in the world (watching a 10 year old kid by going to the beach, Linnanmäki etc...) And then I'm gonna move to my grandma's flat in Kamppi for 3 weeks alone... whihihihihi

crazy

My summer job at the café is screwed up, I HATE HATE HATE when the employer just cannot say directly that we don't really need you working here right now, I could even handle "no summer job for you btw I changed my mind so fuck off" or something (?! :D) instead they're like "well... I'll call you in two weeks, I'm off for vacation again so... and my brother isn't too happy having you alone here.." Well guess what fucker? I have another summer job ha ha-ha! If that bastard calls me after two weeks (which he won't) I'm gonna say that yeah sure of course I'll be there tomorrow and then never ever show up... Or then SHOW up and spill coffee all over the place and shit and stuff. Okey a bit overboard. I'll just take my medication and start meditating.

Born again runner

From friday!

I met Annmarie in town for lunch and some minor shopping, tomorrow lunch with daddy cool. :)

Gorgeous

Well well well... love his tattoo. And the picture in every ways.

I've been watching America's best dance crew, soon walking with V. I had a slight panic attack a moment ago when I actually believed it's school tomorrow. But it's not thank god! Mostly thankful because I don't have to see people I really don't bother seeing AT ALL, ever. Tsihihhh muhahah.

Tomorrow to town for some minor shopping and then planning saturday with AM.

The Hoodie Returns

It's still wow! Wow wow wow wow wow wow (I enjoy repeating myself)

one of my favourite blogs

PMA is one of my favourite blogs and is only music music music, just the way I want it; not only do the writers have amazing taste of music but they also understand the importance of great design! http://prettymuchamazing.com

NEXT WEEK

Next week is something I really look forward to! Wednesday C's birthday dinner + clubbing afterwards, friday we get our final report card and saturday one million graduate parties to go to. Yibbedibbiyodo.

How am I gonna be able to fall asleep? I had a powernap from 17 - 20. Very powerful indeed!

Two days with the girls

On thursday these two girlies came to my place for a two day stay; thursday we had a beer drinking game and went to the sauna, friday we put make-up on and went to Onnela where for once it was really really fun. I went to sleep 6 in the morning after eating potato chips with ketchup (?!)

And this morning I kicked my ass by punching myself in the lip by mistake. Oolraighty then! I must say I skipped two parties I should've gone to but meating lots of familiar people in the same place is for the moment something I avoid. Simply for the reason of having to explain how I've been etc (never been better and that fact is quite horrible actually) So I'm sorry for not showing up:(

hardest button to button

Pretty pictures is da shit for me. I'm bored, A&I are very very late and I'm opening a beer already just because the sun came out. Yippee öhhöh.

Girls girls girls

Yesterday my crippled friend Stella came to my house for sunbathing and beer drinking. Then Cecci joined for evening sun and a wonderful dinner with a horror movie. I'm proud I was among the few who wasn't partying yesterday, I mean I have nothing to do for the next 2,5 weeks so... But today my girlies from the cit-tt-tty are coming (hanging out with lots of girls these days wonder why;)

This is how I wanna look!

I'm stunned, that hoodie is so gorgeous that I have to go for a real look-a-like hunt in town with a weapon if necessary. Grrr...

www.fashiontoast.com

morning!

www.cobrasnake.com

I don't know if I appreciate my life at the moment as much as I should considering that everybody else are reading for entrance exams etc. I wake up and take a walk in the nature (cliché :D but I'm serious it's refreshing), boil some eggs, drink coffee and read fashion magazines for one hour or so, then I look at some blogs and stuff until I meet a friend for shopping or sunbathing =) Hahahahhaha it sounds ridiculous... I need to do some more serious things.

This is gonna be a great week

We made great plans for the week with Annika; on thursday she and Ida will come to my place. On the program is sauna, making dinner, lots of drinks and pictures. And on friday after recovering from hangover partying starts again but in the evening we'll go clubbing somewhere. Tomorrow movie and wine night with my love Cecci. I start to sound like some crappy happy bastard whom I've always hated. Emo for life! Noot!

moi

A little bit more info; my finals ended last tuesday and I've been partying ever since (not really but...) My 2 year long relationship ended on sunday, it's not healthy to be in long relationships as a young kiddo, or that's what a shrink once told me. Not the reason for the end though. My summerjob starts in june and as I don't have any entrance exams to read to I just chill! ;) Today I'm meeting Annika.

ithinkI'mbacknowwithanewchapter

New banner, needless to say it's not me but this beautiful girl Christina; SRC783. I've probably lost all my readers because of my absence, I'm back now. A bit scared because I get so addicted to blogging that it tends to get out of proportion; however, I want to memorize this summer and especially from there on because I might be anywhere in the world and I'm so excited. I have a studying place in Stockholm and yesterday I had a telephone interview and found out I have a place in Australia for communication design. I'm gonna go to Australia if I don't get a place in Bedfordshire in England. I can't believe it!!!

happy ending

On tuesday the party princess returns as her life returns to normal. Or not normal, nothing is compulsory anymore. She can do anything she wants to for the rest of her life. The happy end.

shoulddawouddacoudda

I really really really want to have my long hair back, and once I have it I'm gonna go BLACK!! hihihihihihihiih

lipstique

The thing that's really starting to bugger me off with 4 weeks of reading at home is, not getting to dress up and wear make-up. I miss putting on make-up everyday. But this video is fantastic, the lipsync is tremendous.

badass bootycall shiny disco balls

After 9 hours of biology reading (I know all about non-disjunction, meiosis and the precautionary principle) so now to Stockmann for a face massage (or wtf ama has signed up me for, I couldn't be more ehm... excited)

I think think think I should colour my hair. diidididiii maybe I think too much. Cheers mates!

Hello

Why did I start living now when I should be studying for exams!? Frustrating, all I do is shake my ass in my room and listening to wonderful music, partying all the time. Heh heh...

Yesterday Motellet & Onnela with Ida.
Tonight to Susu and eat with girls and then somewhere? Hmm... My parents provided the booz, thx to them ;)

I must say I'm enjoying my life to the fullest...

yoyo

I spent the night in Joonas hotelroom, we watched "ostostv" and then I went home at 7 in the morning with no sleep.

guess what

My favourite Finnish DJ is performing today in KY! Guess where I'm gonna be... Joonas Hahmo finally, here I come! With my sick-ass stomach :S

If only Fred Falke would come to Finland too and I would never ask for anything more...

Now pasta and jamming to this! With wine....

Godday y'all

School's over, now the crap starts = reading for finals.

Via Kilroy travels you can get a green card to Australia for 1 year. I'm definitely going there at some point, AAAAAARGH I don't wanna be in crap Finland anymore.

Zorgens

I'm really busy currently; I have to read enormous amounts of maths this week to be able to read history, economics, biology, english&swedish books in only 4 weeks before exams.

I hang out with Janna today in the sun eating icecream and tomorrow I'm gonna go to Fille's after my gifts from Thailand. Those are the highlights.

Now back to maths ->

High Contrast

I've read 80 pages of Oranges are not the only fruit and calculated two chapters of maths. Now I'm gonna take a refreshing walk with Roppana and then all this continues. IB dinner this evening, all hell explode! The last time I'm partying before exams in May... I don't know what I'm wearing but that's not the problem, I have to buy a wine bottle and somehow get to Alko.

Cheers mates! (Fille just called and said Thailand is full off Ed Hardy tanks and tshirts. God Bless Thailand)

This is how we do it

Hooooooh very unbelievable indeed, my bed is pointing downwards.
Fille took this picture, ages ago though. Now read book and then Zzz

Inspirational death

My inspiration is at zero (0) for the moment regarding everything. I haven't had a photoshoot with any of my friends for a looooong time and all my clothes are seemingly boring.

An aspiring design student should swell with inspirational ideas. But no? The only idea that comes to my mind for an interesting picture right now is throwing a cup of coffee into someones face and memorizing that moment. Any volunteers?

Dried Plums

I ate a bag of dried plums in the afternoon, the rest you can think out yourselves...

Freaky Tuesday

Tuesday I looked like this. Like a freak so to say. I love editing.

Hello

My new shirt from Gina Tricot stole my heart.

Today I went skiing with Verkku and Dana, then I spent forever reading a swedish book. Tomorrow I'm taking a day off from school, I have to read the second swedish book for the finals. It's called the Dwarf (Dvärgen).

Yeah it feels weird to be the one focusing on the exams now when everyone else are on vacations in Thailand, New York etc... (should I mention Ruka too? Finland's boring ;))

hmm

It's weird how someone can act so happy everyday when in reality that person is feeling like crap inside.
My mother wants me to download Sturm und Drang's cd.

OOPS

Oops I did it again... I SHOPPED AND SPENT ALL MY MONEY. (30e)

I was so tired when I got home that I fell asleep on the couch, I have a vague memory of me yelling to someone to fucking stop what he was doing. My brother was leaving the house in a very loud manner...

Twohundredthousand

Hmm, the only swedish artist I like? (Just kidding, I like backyard babies to some extent) Eric Gadd - tvåhundratusen :)

Shopping

This t-shirt was just a logical buy, fricking beautiful. My bfriend bought a white one. "Too matchy matchy", that bastard is going to Thailand tonight. He's coming back with a bag full of Ed Hardy tanks, for me. <3

I can't wait for another day

My weekend was basically this; friday spent at Cecci's, then home to dad at 11 because of my interview etc on saturday, started at 9 and ended at 3. I was dead after that but managed to go out partying with Ida, I met Stella later that evening and she texted me on sunday "hahahah all that stuff you through on people!" so yeah... I don't know what I've thrown but it's kind of scary.. hopefully not money. Some people get really loud and annoying when they are drunk, I start throwing my stuff on people. Because I think it's hilarious...

What is that even, a phobia? I don't know anyone else who has those weird problems...

Weird

When a stranger sits next to me on a bus, I get really nervous and want to leave instantly.
Therefore I try to avoid this situation at all costs, placing my bag on the seat next to me.

This also happens in an auditorium if I'm sitting in the middle surrounded by people; I get nervous and restless because I can't leave whenever I want to, I'd have to ask all those people to move.

I've been experiencing these situations more; before it was only a problem if I knew there was a lot of space (e.g. the bus stop bench) and despite the space someone sits really close to me... That was and would be a horrible situation for me.

Hola amigos

I got a terrible headache when I got back from town, I was completely dead for 15 minutes, went to the shower and stood there with eyes closed in complete darkness for god knows how long. As a kid I had migraine every month, it was so bad I threw up but nowadays it lasts about 15 minutes but I'm very light sensitive during those minutes. My brother even had to blow the candle when we sat in the dinner table as it made the pain worse...

Anyway before this I was in town and shopped a bit with Stella.

Good mooorrning

Yihuu, now to school for one lesson, then to Fille; I'm giving him a shopping list as he's going to Thailand soon (lots of Ed Hardy tanks ;)) and bags... and shoes... Poor guy.

I reaaaally would like to go shopping, I can't study right now, I'm too excited about saturday plus skiing in the evening avec Verkku.

Bliiiblaaabliiblaablibalibabab.

Excellent day indeed

Oh yes and it's been an excellent day besides the fact that I'm one step closer to my dream school; Verkku came back from NY and brought me this piece of clothing:


It's going to be a summer favourite but oh yeah, I'm working 24/7 so all I'm gonna see is green, green and green. That's my uniform...

Leo

My poses are getting weirder and weirder... BUT I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE RECRUITMENT DAY IN HELSINKI for hyper island! Now they just have to realize I would be an excellent student. If I do I won't have to open school books anymore, no tests, no teachers! Only creative assignments and group works on advertising and other media related things. I must be dreaming?!

The Bloody Beetroots

These dudes are fricking crazy, I dig them extremely much. They have very much the same sound as Deadmau5.

Butterfly

Amamamamamamamama is the womaaaan in the picture.

Huuhuhuu

Hurrayy I've finally applied to two schools; Hyper Island in Sweden with digital media as a major and then to Bergh's school of communication in Sweden for communication design (+3 yrs in Melbourne). Now I just have to apply to my back-up plan, graphic design in Lapland.

I slept 2 hours after school, I woke up and remembered my dream; My dog roope turned into a giant bug...

just a tiny weeny advertisement

He was really nice. Pity he's in Sthlm, Vida Loca guy's weren't even half as nice.

HELSINKI INC.

Finally able to post pictures from the Helsinki Inc event. The tattooer Mikael had such a wonderful tattoo on his left arm, you can see it in pic 2. Annmaries tattoo on the last one :)