Zorgens

I'm really busy currently; I have to read enormous amounts of maths this week to be able to read history, economics, biology, english&swedish books in only 4 weeks before exams.

I hang out with Janna today in the sun eating icecream and tomorrow I'm gonna go to Fille's after my gifts from Thailand. Those are the highlights.

Now back to maths ->

High Contrast

I've read 80 pages of Oranges are not the only fruit and calculated two chapters of maths. Now I'm gonna take a refreshing walk with Roppana and then all this continues. IB dinner this evening, all hell explode! The last time I'm partying before exams in May... I don't know what I'm wearing but that's not the problem, I have to buy a wine bottle and somehow get to Alko.

Cheers mates! (Fille just called and said Thailand is full off Ed Hardy tanks and tshirts. God Bless Thailand)

This is how we do it

Hooooooh very unbelievable indeed, my bed is pointing downwards.
Fille took this picture, ages ago though. Now read book and then Zzz

Inspirational death

My inspiration is at zero (0) for the moment regarding everything. I haven't had a photoshoot with any of my friends for a looooong time and all my clothes are seemingly boring.

An aspiring design student should swell with inspirational ideas. But no? The only idea that comes to my mind for an interesting picture right now is throwing a cup of coffee into someones face and memorizing that moment. Any volunteers?

Dried Plums

I ate a bag of dried plums in the afternoon, the rest you can think out yourselves...

Freaky Tuesday

Tuesday I looked like this. Like a freak so to say. I love editing.

Hello

My new shirt from Gina Tricot stole my heart.

Today I went skiing with Verkku and Dana, then I spent forever reading a swedish book. Tomorrow I'm taking a day off from school, I have to read the second swedish book for the finals. It's called the Dwarf (Dvärgen).

Yeah it feels weird to be the one focusing on the exams now when everyone else are on vacations in Thailand, New York etc... (should I mention Ruka too? Finland's boring ;))

hmm

It's weird how someone can act so happy everyday when in reality that person is feeling like crap inside.
My mother wants me to download Sturm und Drang's cd.

OOPS

Oops I did it again... I SHOPPED AND SPENT ALL MY MONEY. (30e)

I was so tired when I got home that I fell asleep on the couch, I have a vague memory of me yelling to someone to fucking stop what he was doing. My brother was leaving the house in a very loud manner...

Twohundredthousand

Hmm, the only swedish artist I like? (Just kidding, I like backyard babies to some extent) Eric Gadd - tvåhundratusen :)

Shopping

This t-shirt was just a logical buy, fricking beautiful. My bfriend bought a white one. "Too matchy matchy", that bastard is going to Thailand tonight. He's coming back with a bag full of Ed Hardy tanks, for me. <3

I can't wait for another day

My weekend was basically this; friday spent at Cecci's, then home to dad at 11 because of my interview etc on saturday, started at 9 and ended at 3. I was dead after that but managed to go out partying with Ida, I met Stella later that evening and she texted me on sunday "hahahah all that stuff you through on people!" so yeah... I don't know what I've thrown but it's kind of scary.. hopefully not money. Some people get really loud and annoying when they are drunk, I start throwing my stuff on people. Because I think it's hilarious...

What is that even, a phobia? I don't know anyone else who has those weird problems...

Weird

When a stranger sits next to me on a bus, I get really nervous and want to leave instantly.
Therefore I try to avoid this situation at all costs, placing my bag on the seat next to me.

This also happens in an auditorium if I'm sitting in the middle surrounded by people; I get nervous and restless because I can't leave whenever I want to, I'd have to ask all those people to move.

I've been experiencing these situations more; before it was only a problem if I knew there was a lot of space (e.g. the bus stop bench) and despite the space someone sits really close to me... That was and would be a horrible situation for me.

Hola amigos

I got a terrible headache when I got back from town, I was completely dead for 15 minutes, went to the shower and stood there with eyes closed in complete darkness for god knows how long. As a kid I had migraine every month, it was so bad I threw up but nowadays it lasts about 15 minutes but I'm very light sensitive during those minutes. My brother even had to blow the candle when we sat in the dinner table as it made the pain worse...

Anyway before this I was in town and shopped a bit with Stella.

Good mooorrning

Yihuu, now to school for one lesson, then to Fille; I'm giving him a shopping list as he's going to Thailand soon (lots of Ed Hardy tanks ;)) and bags... and shoes... Poor guy.

I reaaaally would like to go shopping, I can't study right now, I'm too excited about saturday plus skiing in the evening avec Verkku.

Bliiiblaaabliiblaablibalibabab.

Excellent day indeed

Oh yes and it's been an excellent day besides the fact that I'm one step closer to my dream school; Verkku came back from NY and brought me this piece of clothing:


It's going to be a summer favourite but oh yeah, I'm working 24/7 so all I'm gonna see is green, green and green. That's my uniform...

Leo

My poses are getting weirder and weirder... BUT I GOT ACCEPTED TO THE RECRUITMENT DAY IN HELSINKI for hyper island! Now they just have to realize I would be an excellent student. If I do I won't have to open school books anymore, no tests, no teachers! Only creative assignments and group works on advertising and other media related things. I must be dreaming?!

The Bloody Beetroots

These dudes are fricking crazy, I dig them extremely much. They have very much the same sound as Deadmau5.

Butterfly

Amamamamamamamama is the womaaaan in the picture.

Huuhuhuu

Hurrayy I've finally applied to two schools; Hyper Island in Sweden with digital media as a major and then to Bergh's school of communication in Sweden for communication design (+3 yrs in Melbourne). Now I just have to apply to my back-up plan, graphic design in Lapland.

I slept 2 hours after school, I woke up and remembered my dream; My dog roope turned into a giant bug...

just a tiny weeny advertisement

He was really nice. Pity he's in Sthlm, Vida Loca guy's weren't even half as nice.

HELSINKI INC.

Finally able to post pictures from the Helsinki Inc event. The tattooer Mikael had such a wonderful tattoo on his left arm, you can see it in pic 2. Annmaries tattoo on the last one :)

I want that fricking tattoo now!

this is getting hilarious

I'm currently writing an application form. YES, I've finally managed to sort out the incredible mess in my head.

Fuck all school I've talked about, FUCK Hanken. I'm serious, what was I thinking of? Now I'm just scared to death that I won't be accepted this year. I'm applying to "Lapin Yliopisto" as a second option for graphic design so I could always stay there but yes, the school I'm writing an application form to is Bergh's school of communication in Stockholm where I would be 1/2 years and from there I would be transferred to Swinburne University (or that's my option) to study communication design. Oh yes, it's in Melbourne, Australia and I would be there for 3 years.

It's so damn perfect! What should be included in an application form? "I'm perfect" and other ass-licking?

peace N love

I'm waiting for Fille to call; I'm going to their house and eat fondue with his family. This song has been playing all day in my room and now shampagne! ;)

I'm gonna be great

Both great songs; 3 doors down - train and Bob Seger's cover of Turn the page by Metallica.
I went on a long walk with my dog and ended up on the ice, it was so beautiful! Soon getting prepared to celebrate Fille's 19 years.

onceyougetstartedtheresnostopping

Once you've been there there's no turning back... I'm fascinated but my friend... she is now a new person. I'm talking about the Helsinki Ink festivals. It was crazy, we were there for 2 hours or more? Pictures are coming when she gives me the permission to post them here.

I found a new lifestyle there, not for me but overall.

Fasten your seatbelts

Photograph me, Model Amanda.

My future J.O.B

I know what I want to become; An AD, art director.
To plan adverts/campaigns and tell photographers, graphic designers etc what to do! Muhahahaha

No I'm serious, it would be a dream! :)

The ponies and rainbows...

I'm truly a very kind person... but my friends know that sometimes I might be too direct with guys I just want to fuck off. I'm not gonna say what I've said to them but they wouldn't be happy to meet me... I would be happy to meet them though... ;)

Ok... I like babies and cute little ponies and little rainbows...

Life is going on when we're doing something else

Haha, I look like an arrogant bastard! That's actually what I am...
Tomorrow Finnish tattoo exhibitions at Kaapelitehdas! Tickets 17e, we'll be there avec Annmarie. :) Before that to grandma and eat.

Truly madly deeply in love

I'm in love with this song; I had the same fixation with Michael Gray's Weekend but now, holy crap this is it! So all you electro/house lovers listen!

My type of meal

I mean who made up white pasta even? Black is so much cooler.
Yeah... It tasted exactly the same, but I laughed to my meal for 5minutes until I started eating.

Love Lockdown

.... because the original version is plain boredom. This is a step towards it.

Outfit and smiles

I love being in school right now, you know C. ;) We visited Vida Loca tattoo shop with AM (planning a tattoo for her, not me... yet) and we're going on friday to the Finnish tattoo exhibitions at Kaapelitehdas. I told AM she can't go there with her Louis Vuitton bag and Mulberry scarf, I'm gonna pimp her my style ;) scrubby scrubby scrubby...

Freak

I dreamt about Joonas Hahmo yesterday; I was on his gig and he hugged me.

I mean....?

Oh crap

hey, what if someone powerful from Hanken read this and now I definitely don't get in? just crossed my mind if it's even possible.

I'm gonna cry. Actually I'm laughing to my pathetic knowledge of anything related to Finnish universities. I guess I have to suffer now, tomorrow I'm heading to our schools terminator Annika and give her a part of my angst!

This is just so fucking great

When I now finally figured out where I want to go (not to Hanken because it's just the same continuation of IB economics which is absolutely boring and MORE FUCKING BORING) the programme I really do want to study is media engineering at Metropolia which isn't opened for application anymore because it fucking closed in february. Yes, I want to go to an "ammattikorkeakoulu" because I'm ready to cut this shit of studying everything on a university level when I can study the deep shit immediately in an ammattikorkeakoulu.

So what am I doing now? Apply to Hanken because it's the only alternative left? What if I get in? Then I'm stuck there? Because who would change from Hanken to an ammattikorkeakoulu? An idiot?

WHY IS MY LIFE JUST SO FUCKING GREAT?

a title

I look like a baby who's too excited to be still so I'm waving my arms? -.-
Actually I was getting ready to jump.

do that gold thing

Oooo I want those shoes and jeans!

Shouldn't spring be about sun?

It's snowing outside and it's so extremely depressing. I'm so extremely depressed. But I don't want to think about my problems too much because I want to be happy. So that's what I am, almost always.

I always think nobody actually reads my blog, so when I tell my friends something that I wrote here, it comes as a shock that they know about it already coz they READ MY BLOG?!

Exported

My friend is going to NY (yes hate her, jealous!) but I'm asking her to bring me something from F21, probably the easiest store to bring something cheap from.



These dresses I just have to have!

One of the best

This funky beat makes evertyhing better! Love Fred Falke who made this remix. \,,/

Things to do when bored

I found this quite hilarious; http://www.urban75.org/useless/bored.html has great ideas what to do when bored.

* Blink wildly and then close your eyes really tight for an interesting light show(Amusement Potential: 1-5 minutes)See a variety of blobs, stars and flashes. Try to make out shapes and see if your subconscious is trying to send you a message (perhaps that funny shape is saying, 'send all your money to urban75.com'?)

* Try to not think about penguins(Amusement Potential: 1-5 minutes)This is especially hard, because by trying too much, you remember what you were trying to avoid thinking of. If you try too little, you end up thinking about penguins anyway.

* Scratch yourself(Amusement Potential: 1-3 minutes)Go ahead, scratch yourself now. Even if nothing itches, go ahead. Doesn't that feel pretty good?

* Pretend to be a car(Amusement Potential: 5-10 minutes)Make appropriate revving noises in your head as you walk along and add a racing commentary as you pass strangers in the street. Use blinking eyes as indicators for extra authenticity.

The pretend to be a car one had me laughing for 5 minutes. God my life is worthless...

I clicked shoes home

I bought these shoes today from H&M online shop; 19.90€.

I've been searching for plain brown ones so these were perfect! They match my plain black ones. ;)

Bw vs color

I love playing with photoshop. This is what my sunday is all about; surfing on the net, eating, editing. ;p

iihahaa

Yey a picture! My hair has grown a lot since it was cut. My goal is to get it even longer than in the picture ;)

Mm

Very bad blogging because of my fucked up saturday which I spent; lying in my bed, eating and throwing up the food 5 min later. This all happened 6/7 times. I'm still not fully recovered... What was I thinking on saturday morning at 6 am still drinking?

Today I'm photographing Maya for her portfolio work for a university in Milan, she's going to study fashion marekting. Same as I want to do, but I can't go to Milan because of my blonde hair. Mhihihih.

yesterday

Yesterday... what can I say, we started off at Annmaries house and from there we went to KY golden club, from there we went to Roba with Verkku and Cecci, I have a vague memory that we sang really loudly some made-up song which I can't remember. In Roba I talked with the DJ and danced with blondie Stella and half past 2 we started walking to the bus. Me and Verkku went to Obli "jatkoille", it was 5 in the morning. I played Guns N Roses and Dire straits and drank 80%booz, it was mad. We went to the sauna and then I called Annmarie 7 in the morning to say that I'm still drinking and partying! She sounded like a creep. 12 o'clock I heared someones phone ringing and after 1min I realised it was mine, I answered and Annmarie hang up the phone. I must've sounded like I was dying. It was a successful night. "Jatkot" is probably the best part of the partying scene. I'm still drunk and it's 2 o'clock. Hmm.... what to do?

Daddy here I come

I was at my father's house today and eat. Then I met Stella for 10min. Now I'm home being depressed over a fucking song.

This is it

This is it. Joonas Hahmo's sound of sunday. This song kills me, it kills me more if I don't get to hear this live from him. And if I do then I'm gonna cry.

I want this song to be played in my funeral.

My new glasses

Yes, very representative as usual. I'm depressed and now I know why, I'm scared to death that my friends friend is not able to get me in to Serena on saturday to see Joonas Hahmo etc. I almost cried today, it's that bad. I don't know what I'm gonna do on saturday if I don't get to go. Probably kill myself, drink in a bar so that I'm not gonna remember who I am anymore.

Such a thrill

Picture 1. Hahah I found that mask when I cleaned one of my closets, I made it when I was 10 in an art club which was in French. It's kind of cool but what I don't understand is how it's still in such a good shape. I'm gonna hang it on the wall...
Picture 2. I went skiing in the morning and now I've drunk 2 cups of coffee.

Selfportraits

In the old good days I took a lot of selfportraits, a lot of them can be seen in my photogalleries (click on the links to the right) and yes it's me in both pictures.

ART

The Lindex belt... Soon skiing with Cecci, finally I got her to move her ass out from the library! This is gonna be fun, let's hope I don't ski on her like last time...

Makes sense

I have to go on a "burnout" vacation it seems.

... And I don't even have school or exams to stress about ftm.
Maybe that's the reason.

Continuing

So now I'm listening to classical music to calm down a bit. And my scented candles are burning.

My lovely day

I had my english oral today and struggled with the word "persuasive", it turned out something like "pershuashive" and then I started laughing hysterically. Well it actually went well after all.

I bought a belt from Lindex and on my way home from the bus stop a man who walked in front of me had peed and shitten in his pants, I smelled it 100m after passing him.

I had to pull something out of me with force which in the first place should come out easily...

I've eaten one bread today because of all the stress. And I can't get the pee&shit man smell out of my nose.

What job would that be?

Is there a job where music, fashion and photography are combined?

Escape

Devianart.com - m0thyyku

Mjaaaaaaah it has been such a boring day, lame weather, lame people, lame lame lame lame lame lame lame lame.

I'M AMAZED

Cecci the song is dedicated to you, this is what we're gonna play after "Don't laugh" ;) AND the little boy is mine, I love him. And the song.

America's best dance crew

I'm watching America's best dance crew and oooooh I wanna go dancing and partying. Well friday at least when Akon comes to the Finnish KY-club!

Yauu

cobrasnake